I searched for this site (and for pro-gay christian sites too) because I've recently been going through a bit of a spiritual upheaval.
Every time I've been at christian events and "welcomed Jesus into my heart" it's been due to the overwhelming atmosphere and getting carried away with it. This time, it's all been serious introspection by myself. The other times, I recovered from the rally, looked around and went "yeeeah. no."
This time, I kinda hope the feeling lasts. When I say to myself "I want to accept God", I get this weird feeling in my chest, a nervous excited feeling - like every time I knew my boyfriend was coming to visit.
I've searched the web, and found that liberal christians DO exist and they indeed question everything I question, including Jesus' divinity. They critically read the bible and reinterpret it. They focus on Jesus' life and teachings, not his death. They are open to being pro-choice and pro-gay.
I still feel like I need to tell someone irl and that I'll probably break down into tears doing so (it's a very powerful feeling to me), but I don't know where to go. There's an Outreach Church that comes to the campus center every sunday but I think they're baptist. I'd feel cheesy using them to confess and then say "by the way, I support killing babies and gay marriage, lolz!" I don't think I could take the glares