hey everybody..

i was looking around for some info on psychosis and its likes..
and came unto this forum..

seems like a lot of u guys have pretty good experiences (compared to me, anyway...)..
so i might as well ask for opinions..

first.. a little background info.

i dunno where to start ...about 2 years ago, i was getting really good grades n was on top of everything and felt normal..but then suddenly, the grades dropped and all went downhill..

I told myself the grades dropped cuz I was under stress (exams and other issues), but they're still not cuming back up..Like I can put the effort in to study, but not much goes in.

And also, i couldnt talk properly... actually this has been sumthing i have had problem as long as i can remember.. i can never say anything that i really want.. it always comes out in rushed sentences that dont make much sense..
ppl have told me that and i also noticed it get worse within the last 2 years...

another major thing i am sure i have is the multiple personality disorder..
when im with ppl i really really know and am comfortable with (my siblings and parents)... i have a relaxed and open personality ..

but when i meet sum1 new for the first time or don't know sum1 that well.. i switch into this other mode.. where, not only do i stop thinking, but i cannot speak normally.. that is i speak fast and say things without thinking.. when they ask something, i cannot think about it.. i just rush and give an answer (should it make sense or not, I cannot think..)

this also happens when im around friends ..only 1 or 2 friends that i can really open up but even then sumtimes i get into this rushed non-thinking sentences...

and basically everybody i talk to.. when im nervous i jump into this mode of no thinking about what to say AT ALL....


the weirdest thing is, i have the most random memory losses..
i am not talking about anything serious like not remembering what happenned or sumthing..but more like if I hear a word and repeat it say, 10 times.. about 40% of the time.. i'll forget it within 5 minutes...other than that, theres other random things..like social activity I don't like being in others company.. I always spend time alone..some of my friends say ask why don't u come with us but I jus don't feel like going.. as when I do.. I usually say things without thinking and make a fool of myself.

and just for information..
I have never had a therapist.. or any kind of thing like that..

So any idea whats going on??

I think it's the starting stages of psychosis .. but I could be wrong.. though I could be right as well..

And sorry for making it long..