embarrassment after a psychotic episode

Oh by the way I emailed the "famous"person heaps and at first wouldn't say and just said I was having mega problems. The problems got worse because I did that etc
My boyfriend found out and still 200% supports me. Geez I'm a lucky b***h!!
Oh yeah I put on over 40kg in 6 months because of this

The only way I would see myself overcoming it is by humour. It can be liberating if you're able to laugh about yourself a bit. Otherwise don't worry, it's not a big deal, though it may seem to you like it is.

I agree with Philo. We have a family friend who makes up stories like this all the time. Everyone has a good laugh about it because, importantly, she laughs about it herself. She just brushes it off by saying that she gets carried away with her wishful-thinking and moves on to another mad story. We all love her dearly and as far as I know, no one judges her harshly for it.

40kgs, eh? Now that IS something worth thinking about! You may well have self esteem issues and that would explain the story, the emails etc.

Perhaps you should speak to a professional about building your self-esteem. I know only too well how a lack of it can make life very hard.

I do have VERY low self esteem.
I have older twin sisters who made my life hell. I never recovered from it. (might sound silly) But they just made me feel left out all the time and said things to ruin my confidence. They say it's all my problem not theirs. And basically from what I gather they see it as another "fault" in me. I'm not close with them and will probably never forgive them because it's ruined my life. It's a every day stuggle to get out of bed, I have 2 kids to tend to, It's the most heart breaking thing about it all.
I'm Bipolar II and after my...um... How do I say it?? I haven't the words and I mean no harm if it offends, Psychosis, People treated me different, they were embarrassed for me and I guess shocked that I became that person. A person who would believe what I thought was true. Also people are condecending now and it's frustrating and really want someone to understand but have not so far. I joined a bipolar group and ended up being told I need antipsychotics because I believe if we better ourselves then we will cope alot better. The person who said that was saying at one point she puts head phones on to ignore her child because she can't cope. I sugested she gets help from a website like parenting.com etc. Cos it's not fair on the child and he himself might become bipolar etc without her meaning. (because her son will feel hopeless to help her and feel he is shut out) etc
Hmm I don't know I just want to feel better and hate that I did what I did!

Sounds like you'll have a lot of rebuilding to do... on your own terms!