Hi
I have never really hurt my self, however I frequently get the urge to hurt my self and/or commit cuicide.
It might just be due to the fact that I am on anti-depressants that I have not acted on any of these urges but I don't know if it is really a problem or not. ( I can't remember when I started taking anti-depressants )
Is it concidered to be normal to want to hurt your self so the emotional/mental pain gets over shadowed by physical pain but never act on it?
Is it normal to have the urge to want to not be alive any more?
While smoking outside once, I got lost in my thaughts when a work colluege came outside and asked me "What are you trying to do?". I realised that I was intentionally holding my sigarette close to my arm and stopped when she mentioned it. Even the slight burn of it close to my skin, made me feel "better".
I guess it has to do with anxiety...? The pain somehow causes the anxiety to go away somehow?
I think, had she not come out and stopped me, I would have started to burn my self but somehow due to fear of being discovered...I never did it again.
I suppose, in a way, having someone find out is like having your heart exposed...it shows how you are feeling...
I don't know if this makes any sense or wether it is even serious enough to talk about...seeing as I haven't really acted on it even though the urges gets pretty strong at times...