Hi there
I know exactly how you feel. When I
started going to a therapist, I also
didn't know how much to actually say and
if she would bring out the white coats if
I told here everything
.
I also have problems remembering things
but I don't think you need to know the
particulars of my situation at this point.
Suffice it to say, it is normal to forget
things from time to time, get irretated
with people and even sometimes feel like
they are judging you etc. It all depends
on the severity and what the impact is on
your life, work and relationships. That
is where the therapist comes in to play.
They would evaluate wether it is just
normal forgetfullness or some other area
that requires treatment.
Some of the things you have just said is
extremely important for the therapist to
know in order to make a good diagnosis and
help you feel a lot better.
My therapy sessions eventually started to
turn into a ranting session and she didn't
seem to mind all that much
.
Psychological problems is very difficult
to deal with. If you break your bone, the
doctor can take an x-ray and see exactly
what has happened and how to fix it.
Unfortunately it's not that easy with
one's mind (Although sometimes I wish I
could just transplant my whole brain into
someone else's brain so they can
understand what I am thinking and
feeling.). Therefor, it is important to
mention as much as possible.
You don't have to feel pressured to spill
the beans all in one go though. Take it
slowly and give more and more every time.
Giving too much at once would most
probably at any rate overwhelm the
therapist and things might get lost. Just
so long as you let him/her know about it
at a stage in your therapy. The more
he/she knows, the better off you are.
And don't feel ashamed or weird. It's not
your fault. It's just the way that your
brain is wired. See it like it is your
brain that needs therapy and not you as a
person if that makes sense
.
I can assure you that the therapist has
seen much worste nut-cases than your
self...most probably including me
