I am diagnosed Bipolar 1 with ADHD. The last few months I have been experiancing some new things. At least I caught on to them. could have been going on longer. I will try to explain as best I can. Just to note I have already started talking about theese things with my doctors.
First off there are times when nothing seems real. As if reality is in a bubble and I am outside of it looking at it. I do not feel anything is real, I am just there.
Then there have been increasing cases where I cant tell if I am dreaming or awake. Sometimes I do a task and swear I have already done it. Maybe I dreamt doing it before I did it or the other way arround. I do not know.
Lastly False memories are trying to fill my head. Sometimes I will be thinking of stuff that happened only to later realize they didnt. I keep remembering myself in situations I have not been in.
This stuff is all new to me and so far don't know anyone with similar experiances. I do not know how to deal with this nore tell my love how she can help with it. So far I have devuldged this to my doctors in my last session last week. It is was fear of embaressement that took me so long to tell her. I just couldnt take it anymore. She took a bunch of notes that day. Scheduled to go back on the 31.
If anyone has any idea what may be going on please give me a clue. this is frustrating and scaring me. Any advice to pass on to my fiance would also be nice.
Thanks
-Del