I am a 21 Male and have been suffering from Bulimia for the past 2 years, .(height and weight removed by tinkinpink84, can trigger those struggling and in recovery) Recently (over the past few months) my bulimia has slowly turned into anorexia, now I only eat a few (2 or 3) times a week and throw up whatever I eat immediatly. It's as natural as brushing your teeth in the morning, I eat, go throw it up and move on with my day. I need help, the effects of these dieseases are finally starting to become evident, I feel like I am going to pass out all the time, my body has strange twitches, my teeth are gums are eroding away and I still can't stop. I need help, I know, but I'm not sure if I want it, I'm not sure that I will be ok with gaining weight, as sad as it may sound. I would almost rather be dead then weigh as much as I did before. i just don't know what to do...