To all......... I first met my partner 2 and a half years ago. He was a wreck, alcoholic and on drugs. My heart went out to him for he was still a good man but just going through rough times. We became close friends and things starting getting serious between us and I was helping him through alot of his issues and we finally got him off drugs and most of his alcohol addiction. Time went by and i grew extremely attached and I guess you could say in love and he in love with me. I always knew he was different and even back then could be pretty awful at times. But this was justified due to the fact that when he was lovely he was prince charming and everything i ever wanted. So i put up with his behavior until it got worse.
The first time he physically abused me we were together about 8 months.
I tried stopping him from hurting himself and he put his hands around my neck and threw me to the floor. I ran down to his parents for help but they didnt do anything as they are scared of him too but never really take it seriously enough that he hits me apart from giving him a "talk". After that there were several more occasions of physical abuse and at least every second day there was emotional and verbal abuse. The most severe time he hurt me was when i had been out at my girlfriends and was 40 min late home. I messaged to let him know but obviously that wasnt good enough. I walked in the door at 11.00pm . The first thing I heard was him swearing at me to get out so i quietly picked up my things and started leaving. Then i felt my head go into our glass door , he pinned me to the ground and slapped me then strangled me until i could hear nothing but my own heavy breathing. When i could get up i tried to escape but before i knew it he twisted my arm with one hand and with the other hand put my head into the tiled floor. The rest was a blur until i got out and had neighbors pull me into their home and help me find somewhere safe to stay. The other time that really stands out is when he dragged me from the bed by my bottom jaw puncturing under my tounge to the front door, put me up against the wall and hit me then threw me round the house.
These two instances were only two of many. The physical abuse has calmed down but i still get emotionally abused and verbally abused every day now. I dont know why i dont leave especially now that im pregnant and know that my baby is my first priority. If you are in an abusive relationship look up Nacsisstic personality disorder. It could be the cause for your partners abusive behavior. I want to get out of this relationship. I also have been very emotionally abused by his parents and feel so caught in all of this. If you are in a similar situation please write back. I know i can find the strength to leave but i know i need help to do it.
A WARNING TO ALL WOMEN: IF YOU MEET SOMEONE WHO EVEN JUST SHOWS SMALL SIGNS OF ABUSIVE behavior GET AWAY BEFORE YOU GET CAUGHT AND YOU ARE ONE OF THE MANY THOUSANDS OF WOMEN LIKE ME WHO FEEL HOPELESS TO LEAVE.
I refuse to let my son when he is born be brought into a broken home. I have 11 weeks until my due date so need to take action asap.
As sorry as i would feel for him to leave i know deep down he will be fine.
Any women in this situation needs to focus on how their life could be with someone who truly loves and cares for them.
WE ALL DESERVE NOTHING LESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!