well I just recently graduated(c/o:07)...I didn't actually plan ahead of time oh what I wanna do with my life!.....
actually,I wanted to join the ARMY. but Im my mother's youngest and only daughter!.[she dont want me to join that!].
um?.I have an older brother, which is like 5 yrs. older than me..he has a great wife and a beautiful daughter!.....
he suggested me to come n' stay with them and continue my education!......
so now, I'm FAR away from my mom,my friends, and MY BOYFRIEND!.....
growing up,I wasn't allowed to date around..but now I am!......
anywais.....
I love my brother so much!.....
well when I came out here, I've noticed that we dont have those "brother-sister" moments anymore..(like the old days!)..I mean..I know he has a family......
it's just weird!....
he always find ways to be mad!....
well I've heard him and his girl argue!.....
and I HATE it!....
um?!..his girl told me that on the past...my brother was taking drugs!......
[[da BAD drugs!]]......
she says that he stoppped,cause he got caught with it at work..and they fired him!...
she says that no one knows anything about this......[[not even my mom!]].......
so the whole reason why he wanted me to be here...is to help him be strong so he can let go of the drugs!...
and of course I wanna help him in any way!...I'm not even thinking about school or my future!..I wanna help him first!....but he doesn't want me to know!...
so I dont know how to help him out!...
please..anyone..
give me some advice!..what should I do?!...
I hate this feeling!....
I feel that my brother hates me!....
cause he gets me at me for everything I do!......
I wanna run away!..but I cant!..I have no where else to go!.....
I'm new here!......
and I'm tired of crying myself to sleep!