well I just recently graduated(c/o:07)...I
didn't actually plan ahead of time oh what
I wanna do with my life!.....
actually,I wanted to join the ARMY. but
Im my mother's youngest and only
daughter!.[she dont want me to join
that!].
um?.I have an older brother, which is
like 5 yrs. older than me..he has a great
wife and a beautiful daughter!.....
he suggested me to come n' stay with
them and continue my education!......
so now, I'm FAR away from my mom,my
friends, and MY BOYFRIEND!.....
growing up,I wasn't allowed to date
around..but now I am!......
anywais.....
I love my brother so much!.....
well when I came out here, I've noticed
that we dont have those "brother-sister"
moments anymore..(like the old days!)..I
mean..I know he has a family......
it's just weird!....
he always find ways to be mad!....
well I've heard him and his girl
argue!.....
and I HATE it!....
um?!..his girl told me that on the
past...my brother was taking drugs!......
[[da BAD drugs!]]......
she says that he stoppped,cause he got
caught with it at work..and they fired
him!...
she says that no one knows anything
about this......[[not even my
mom!]].......
so the whole reason why he wanted me to
be here...is to help him be strong so he
can let go of the drugs!...
and of course I wanna help him in any
way!...I'm not even thinking about school
or my future!..I wanna help him
first!....but he doesn't want me to
know!...
so I dont know how to help him out!...
please..anyone..
give me some advice!..what should I
do?!...
I hate this feeling!....
I feel that my brother hates me!....
cause he gets me at me for everything I
do!......
I wanna run away!..but I cant!..I have no
where else to go!.....
I'm new here!......
and I'm tired of crying myself to sleep!
