I posted on here a few months back and some of the responses I got really helped me feel better.

Back then I'd was on the verge of splitting with my fiancee, we had what seemed like a perfect life. Nice house, good jobs, so many plans and dreams for the future. We'd been engaged about 10 mths and had a wedding planned for this summer. Anyway, for a long time we'd had "differences" between us. She didn't like the way we made love, from my POV she was very demanding in the bedroom and it put pressure on me to preform - which inevitably I didn't. In the end I went right off sex. Another problem was I found she'd taken up an old habit she'd had before I knew her of going out clubbing - taking ecstacy. When she confessed to me I was stunned. I knew it had been part of her single life, but to hear her tell me (quite casually) that she was doing it again really troubled me. I was so worried about how it could effect her health or what would happen if she took something that could potentially kill her. I stupidly asked her not to do it - but she refused to give it up telling me "It made up for something that was missing with our relationship". I think we both began taking each other for granted and stopping doing things we enjoyed. I'd often find I'd made her a nice meal and she simply wouldn't get home to eat it, when I confronted her she simply told me "don't make me meals then". We grew further and further apart until we decided it was best to split.

I moved out on December 3rd - it was the worst moment of my life. I felt so gutted to be leaving. We'd spoke about resolution, but I couldn't bring myself to make love to her and she wasn't prepared to stop taking drugs.

I moved back to my parents house (which is where I am sitting typing this) and she is in the process of buying my share of the house. On 1st Feb I am due to have the money transferred to my account and officially she will be on her own living in our old house (of 4 yrs).

For a time I was happy it was over, we both starting doing things on our own with our mates again. I have only seen her once in the past 8 wks and it made us both very sad. It seemed to make us both see what we were missing.

I suppose I am writing this as I am feeling so very sad about being single and missing the company of a partner again. Today I was driving in my car and a song came on that we both used to like. I simply started crying. I felt so miserable. I know it was the right thing to do (splitting) but the thought of life on my own is daunting to me right now.

Does anyone have any advice that might make me smile ?