Schizo-affective disorder

hello there sorry to hear about your current predicament but dont loose hope ever. around the time i was 16, im 25 now. i was diagnosed as a type 1 bi-polar with a panic anxiety disorder, a few years(and alot of meds) later my condition was re-evaluated and i was told i fit more along the lines of a schizo-affective disorder. but not long after my doctors got switched and i was once again being treated as simply bi-polar. also last year i was diagnosed with severe adult adhd so i know the mental field fairly well at this point, i've been in psyciatirc hospitals on and off since but have come a long way and continue to grow and understand how my mind works. i wish i could tell you about a miracle cure but theres not one.
i myself other than taking xanax for on and off anxiety and adderall for focus issues due to the adhd have gotten to a point where i seem to have beaten the statistical odds and have not, nor needed to take anything for the bi-polar and or schizo affective disorder in over 4 and a half years. i do not condone or reccomend anyone try this themselves as there was many strange things going on in my individual life that allowed me a chance to take back my own mind so to speak.

the short version of the story goes that i had an experience that literally shattered my mind but left my awareness void of the personality based biases all people create starting from the time they're born. This in turn allowed me to view myself from a standpoint that wasnt my self and acted as a guide to not only repair my shattered self but to pick up the pieces and rebuild it into something completely new but something that was still me metaphoricly speaking.

it was far from an overnight process but who i am now as opposed to who i was prior to the incident is a much more stable and rational person who can stand in control of his own mind/personality instead of letting his own mind/personality control him. you may wish to look into a term "Dark night of the soul" and altho it was coined by saint john of the cross the process it describes can be looked at from any religion or even lack of. think of it more on psychological level if you will. meaning the light at the end of the tunnel it refers to can be seen by some as reaching sainthood but instead think that the light at the end of the tunnel is mastery over your own mind and emotions.