No if anyone is a whale.. This is her <----yep!! Me!!

Although I don't post as often as I used to this post caught my attention. I know how hard it must be for an onlooker of an e/d to comprehend how these girls/women can find themselves to be "fat" because to you they do not look it at all. However it's important to remember that those with e/d's have a warped image of their own bodies and what they see if nowhere near what you do. I do not believe that others post about feeling fat to make others feel bad about themselves however I can see how that can happen. Growing up I fought often with friends because they said the exact same thing: "if you think your fat then what do you think of me!". And to be quite honest I never once thought of them as being large (despite the fact that they may have been bigger then I was). Because to me they looked perfectly fine but when I looked in the mirror I saw a whale. I lost so many friends....They got so sick of my constantly thinking I was fat and they got tired of telling me to snap out of it....It became too frustrating for them...Which is understandable. For example right now I weigh 121 and i'm 5'6 and I feel disgusting...I refuse to look in the mirror. I don;t know what my purpose of responding to this was only to say that I never find myself judging others or looking at their weight because I am so pre-occupied with my own....

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Oh god tanya no! I don't think they post to make others feel bad! We're a "family" here and they post for support! I didn't mean they did it to hurt anyone! Trust me none of those girls would do such a thing! No way! I just want them to know that they are not fat and wether they think it or not they are beautiful and if you wanna see fat. Look at a fat person not any of those 3 I named! I can't find fat on those girls!

Oh chanda it didnt mean it that way hun! I know what you meant i'm just bad with words and I thought what you said was so incredibly kind and thoughtful. And your right none of them are fat!

I agree 100% with tanya, I never look at anyone and see them as fat or big or anything! Its just myself. I think that everyone around me looks very healthy and happy and I want that too and the only way I feel like I can be happy is by resticting. It may sound odd to you but I think this is just how my life is going to go. I praise those who have fully recovered and are doing great. I tried sooooooo hard but its just an ongoing battle that isn't worth the effort anymore!

Meg.....I have been battling with my e/d's for over 10 years now.....The battle never ends but i'm hoping one day all of the fighting will be worth it. Keep fighting...Never give up

Dude, okay....Iv'e saw pics of all you chicks on here....And it seems to be that im the biggest one here.... Cause I posted that question thing and asked how tall and what size you are....Im the biggest one here....Im the tallest and I have the biggest size in jeans!!!!



I will always have a low self-esteem

Lol I remember that post and I didn't reply to it! I can't promise anything but I will give it another shot tanya, its just depressing sometimes, lol call me crazy but I deliberatly change my scale to kms some days just to built confidence(the numbers are much small and I don't know how to calculate it into pounds! Lol) so I am not so doom and gloom! Lol

I have a better idea meg! Throw the scale away! I threw mine away! The only time I get weighed is when I go to the doctors....And I know its depressing...God do I ever know! I just had a huge relapse on my bulimia which I seemed to have under control for a good few months there. But what else do I have to do? I can't give up, its basically a death wish if I do. I just keep reminding myself that about 78% of bulimics die with their head over the toilet because their heart gives out....I never want to die that way I have way too many things to do in life to die in such a disgusting and shameful way.

Thats really sweet of u chanda.. But always remember, even any of us that think were fat and we have an e/d. . Doesnt mean we think ur fat at all. .Its only our own perception of ourselves that is off*

Girls,
you are all strong and yes meg, it is worth the fight! Do you want to be locked up again and forced to eat?????????????? No! Then you have to fight! For yourself! For your life! Either way, i'm here for you forever!
Love,
chanda

And yes meg.. Throw out the scale.. Thats the worst thing to have around. My family got rid of our scales 2 years ago for me. It is helpful.