Q: Struggling With Weight Obsession.
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BbyBlu0602
on April 26th, 2004
Active User, very eHealthy
Guys, i'm really having a time with this fat thing. I am 5'3", and 129 pounds. Everyone keeps telling me I look fine, but whenever I look in the mirror I just wish I was someone else. I'm down to only eating about 400 calories a day, and i'm so tired. I'm having an extremely hard time dealing with the fact that i'm bigger than I used to be. I can't stand it. I hate myself now. I struggled with anorexia when I was in middle school and part of my freshman year when I was in high school. I think I might actually be having a relapse. Even when i'm hungry, I don't eat but a few bites...I can't. Two reason why I can't....I feel guilty and I just feel sick when I eat. Some of my friends call me stupid and think i'm crazy and some even tell me "ur gonna die", but it's something that I can't really control. I am so obsessed about my weight that I weigh myself 3 times a day and try on my pre-pregnancy pants every night before I go to bed to see if i've gotten any smaller so that I can fit into them. I have a journal that I write down how many calories I eat each day and how many fat calories I eat each day. Then I figure out how long I will have to work out to burn off as many calories as I ate...Plus some. Please don't judge me, I just want to talk about it with someone. I know kari has struggled with this in the past, but I don't know of anyone else on here yet that has. If anyone would like to reply, i'd appreciate it.
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