Omg please dont do this to yourself!!! As u know, ive definitly delt with thi, still am. . U dont wanna end up in the hospital..You have a son to care about and u have to put him ahead of your weight.. U cant do that if ur too sick to take care of him (and that will happen if u continue) I know you feel stuck.. But seriously u look terrific and im not just saying that. If u are struggling with anorexia and in a relapse, even if u looked like a stick supermodel then u wont be able to see it. Eating 400 cals a day isnt the way to do it .. At all.. Its acttually the oposite of what u should do. I used to do the same things, write it down, everybite, never go over 500 cals a day.. Praise myself for eating even less then that etc etc.. But im telling u, if u wanna be able to lose weight and be healthy, now or later, eating like this will only slow your metabolism. I ate like this for a long long time till I ended up in the hospital.. Then after wards when I finally decided to change.. .It was sooo hard! I gained so easily.. It really does screw up ur metabolism so u have to stop now or im telling u it will get worse. Im seriously worried for u.. U have a son to take care of. .I cant imagine taking care of a baby when I was at that point in my life....Please.. Try to eat healthy and beat that voice in your head.. U will end up much better in the end..Dont strive for something u probably wont even be able to acknowlege in the end. It does take over ur head.. During the summer at my lower point I was 101 lbs and 5'8...I thought I was fat!! Its ridiculous.. Now I see those pictures and im just like 'omg I am all bones.. I dont even look good'' . . And I didnt.. Please try to follow a healthy eating plan so u can look thin (which u already do!!!) and healthy! The longer u let this voice be in ur head and beat out your own true self concious.. It will be so hard trying to make it go away..Iit took me months and months to stop what I was doing, and I still have to try my hardest even today..Also, as it progresses.. Bulimia could start too (which I had the worst time with) .. And god. .What that does to ur body, looks and metabolism is just horid... The earlier u stop the better. If u look online theres tons of information on eating the healthy way and still losing weight.. Or maintaining wweight.. And its defintily not starving. If u eat 1,500-1,800 depending on ur bmr.. U can lose, and this weight is more permanate weight loss because its healthy., u just have to eeatt the right foods......Pls look into it!