I'll try to keep this short and sweet-
I should be happy because I have a lot of good things going on for me in my life- I'm 20 years old, in my 3rd year at college. I have an internship with a movie production company in Hollywood and I recently got an offer to help with a pilot episode for a new tv show. I have great friends, a parents who support me money-wise, and a caring boyfriend, I'm going to study theatre in London for 2 weeks this May, yet I am unhappy.
Majority of all my emotional struggle comes from my parents strong dislike of my boyfriend and vice versa.
My parents do not like my boyfriend because he doesn't have a drivers license. (He is 20 years old as well.) They even went as far as to say that they do not want me seeing him anymore and that I would have to make a choice between them continuing my funding for school and choosing my boyfriend, which if I choose him over school I would be kicked out of the house. No more school, no job, no place to live, no way to get around. They retracted that threat though, after I talked them down and MAGICALLY made some valid points that they agreed with.
I now live at my parents house for this semester for commuting purposes to school and work. I am not allowed to use my car on weekends because they did not like my grades last semester (2.9 GPA) which put me on probation for my scholarship. I have maintain a 3.0 GPA. I am allowed to see my boyfriend after work on Wednesdays, but I have to be home by 9pm.
My boyfriend knows it would be easier for me and for our relationship if he would just get his license, however, he is afraid to drive because of a near-fatal car accident he was in a few years ago and I guess instead of dealing with the pain he just ran away from it. Having me in his life is causing him to face it. We have been together for 6 months and the majority of our relationship has been fighting with my parents over this issue. He always tells me "How they feel about me is not going to change how I feel about you." and "If it would be easier on you to break up, then we can."
I feel like my parents are toxic to my mental health and that my boyfriend is. I feel like I have to please both sides and I just can't do it well enough. My parents don't make me happy and my boyfriend doesn't help much besides telling me that he isn't going anywhere, when he knows getting his license will solve A LOT of the problems.
I can't cut my parents out of my life, but I'm really considering cutting out my boyfriend. Its just too much emotional crap that is on my mind. He is able to express that he really cares about me but yet some actions say different things. It's all so very confusing.
I want to end it but I'm not sure how I should or if I should. To an extent I feel like my parents are responsible for putting these thoughts in my head, for telling me "If he was a real boyfriend he would get his license and come see you. He doesn't really care about you."
The license would fix SO many issues, but I don't think I can wait any longer.
Insight and advice I welcome!