I am a kid in school, I love god and want to be loyal to him and his commandments, since i got into god years back my life changed in this world i feel alone no one understands me not even my family most of my days are spent thinking thinking of my life and what its worth i dont talk to anybody unless they talk to me because i dont want to bother them maybe they dont want me to talk to them i feel like a piece of trash a failure i have no self-esteem and believe i am only a bother to others but im not a bad person i have real love for everybody.I dont know whats wrong with me sometimes when im alone i think about killing myself, its very easy but its a sin.I dont know but i just need help and dont know who to go to