I have a twin, and it seems my mom is either constintly trying to find the littlest thing wrong to kick him out, or trying to find some reasion to kick me out! Since i was 16 my mom has been so mean. for 7 months straight i was in a very deep depression, and constantly thought of suicide ( up until i was 18, im 19 now and dont get that depressed) I was afraid to do anything in my house that might be seen by my mom as a reasion to kick me out. for 2 years i wasnt aloud to leave the house except to go to school, when went to the store i had to have someone with me, i wasnt aloud to hang out, couldnt watch tv, play on the computer, or any game system, got intruble if i read couldnt talk on the phone i was so depressed. We go through a couple months here and there were my mom and i get along, but now im back around to her trying to find a reasion to kick me out again.
Heres what happend today, my mom is a clean freak, so we clean alot. We have this huge heavy glass table that has really thin legs so its easy to vaccume under, well every week she makes me move the table to the other side of the room to vaccume where it is. Well this morning i was thinking about it and decided it didnt make sence to me to move it every week, so i asked her why we move it every week. She lost it! totaly started yelling at me, calling me lazy and got super pissed! I tould her im sorry i didnt mean to make you mad, i was just woundering. I didnt have an additued when i spoke to her, and tryed to sound friendly, i was totaly shocked she was yelling at me! I cook, i clean, im going to college and i work, im deffntly not lazy.
So every little thing i did she started yelling at me for, last time she did this i was in tears and she was threating to throuw me out. i cant afford to get thouwn out, i spent all of my money paying for school and books, i dont even have a dime, so i cant afford to live on my own. So i decided to let her cool off and went over to Aj's for the day, i came home after school and my bro was telling me how my dad is really mad at me and saying that he's gunna have a "talk" with me, idk what my mom tould him, but all i did was ask y we move the table every week..
I really dont know what to do. Do you think she is over reacting, or did i do soemthing wrong and just dont realize its wrong. Im starting to get really depressed again, and i cant be like that and still put all my effort in school.
So ive been avoiding her, giving her space. Doing everything i think needs to be done so she wont get even madder. but now she's not talkin to me, wont let me listen to music, and keeps giving me evil glars every time she sees me. The tension is so thick around us, you could choke. I know my dads going to give me a "talk" tonight, and its going to invovle alot of yelling and me possibly being kicked out, I really dont know what to do, i dont think i did anything wrong. My dad scares me so much when he yells at me.
oh my days my mum is exactly the same!! totall clean freak, she litch shouts all the time if i make 1 little mistake! its driving me mad! she calls me lazy, says shes the one that does everything! when i do loads for her! she never listens aswell and always thinks she in the right when shes wrong!
Idk, my parents pay for my car and my phone, i dont think i make enought money to pay for school my car, phone, gas rent food. stuff like that Im only making $8 an hour, and i only work 4 hours a night
Well my apartment runs $700/month. That is here in Charleston, SC though. It could be cheaper where you are.
I got a college loan for my classes too. My Pell Grant already covered my tuition and books, so the loan money actually came back to me to pay my other bills. I don't have to pay them back until I graduate. Then, it is a minimum monthly payment.
I would search your local paper for apartments. I'm sure there is a bulletin at your college with ads for people seeking roommates. That would probably be your best bet.
I think you should talk to someone at school about what is happening. They have counsellors for that sort of thing. It sounds like you are very depressed and anxious and no wonder! Your mother has mental health issues of her own and you must not let her rule your life in this way. In my experience, schools and colleges have funds to help in situations like this. You need to get away. You will leave your depression behind when you go to a place where you can read, talk, shop and do whatever you want, when you want.
I tryed finding someone to move in with, but that hasnt worked so well yet lol.
So at home i just acted like nothing was wrong until my mom started acting normal again.. so far so good as long as i can stay on her good side.