I totally understand where you are coming from. I had a miscarriage in July 07. When I was 16wks I went for a routine ultrasound and they found out the the baby had died at 9.5 wks and for some reason my body just didn't begin the m/c process on it's own. I was completely devastated

I have two children already but I really have this desire to have one more to make my family feel complete. It hasn't happened yet but I am still trying and hoping that it happens soon.
I honestly never thought that having a m/c would happen to me....so now when I do get pregnant again I too will be scared. But I have to think that everything happens for a reason. If I am meant to have another baby than I"m sure that I will
Good luck to you and I hope that your TTC journey will be a short one. I am expecting af sometime this week so I am hoping that she stays away and that I get my BFP!! So keep your fingers crossed for me.
I am sending you tons of BABY DUST!!!!!!!
Good Luck!!
Shannah