Hey, I'm quite young - Teenage and for the past few weeks I've been thinking that I might have early symptoms of Schizophrenia.
I'm gonna post up some things that I've been feeling,
- Extremily paranoid - I could be the only one in a room and still feel like
Someone else is in there watching me.
Also my mind keeps saying to me that my family have cameras and are watching me all the time, In school, home etc
I dont feel that I have anything in common with my family at all, I think that I am not the same as my cousins and feel different all the time.
I cant really explain myself well with words and lately have found myself stumbling my words a bit.
I always see things that arent there like a cat etc
Once I saw a man that was alive and smiling hanging upside down on my house landing.
This will probobly sound crazy but I sort of talk to myself unknowing sometimes and then answer myself back
I have isolated myself in the last few years big time and even though I have real good friends in school I cant make friends as easily and dont hang out with them outside school.
I cant concentrate at all really, I am in switch off mode constantly.
I dont even hear what people say half the time, I just hear them talking and dont pay any attention even to my friends and family.
I've had dumb urges like having to make a noise in my throat or making my eyes look over something constantly or thinking something over and over again for no reason at all.
I have thoughts that I dont like to have but keep popping up even if I try to think of something different the thought is still there and stopping me and my mind from switching off.
I hate going to bed and on weekends stay up till 3 - 4am
I have trouble sometimes going to sleep due to thoughts not going away
I also dont feel comfortable or at ease or relaxed even around family who I have grown up with
If I read sometimes I have to re-read a line over and over again because otherwise the urge to do so will nag at my brain.
My mood changes in a split second and I find myself really snapping and flipping out, I cant make eye contact with someone I'm not close to as if I do I feel really tense and think that they are threatening me in some way
I also feel that someone can see what I feel, think, write and say all the time so i avoid writing,saying,thinking things.
These are just some of the things I go through daily
I'm seeing a doctor in 2 days about it and if there are any tips as to how to actually speak about this then please help with that and what do you think about all of this.