do you want to have kids? for me thats my ultimate goal for getting better. i want so much for things to be completly different and better for my kids. i don't want something i did to hurt them. trust in your husband, and yourself. when you start falling again, let him know if he doesn't already. no matter how much you don't want to, let him know. its the only way i've found to help, cuz we're at a point where ourselves just isn't gonna cut it sometimes.

Hi, congrats on wedding!

I can so much relate to you!
God, if there was an easy cure or a pill from ed...but thre is not. the only way is a step by step recovery and self confidence. I am no more a bulimic and definetly not anorexic:) 1 year now. I mean I dont purge or take luxatives. But I know what anorexia and buliia are. even now when i binge-and i am a binge eater-i get this ideas "hey, u have been a good girl for so long, one purge just one purge would have saved u from a diet tomorrow and a day after tommorow, why not an tomorrow u wont have a puffy face....." yes, yes these ideas are there....BUT SHOULD WE LISTEN TO THEM? DEFINATELY NOT!

now anorexic ideas: "not eating....wow this is heaven...u dont need to watch what u eat...u just dont eat at all...God, u can binge and then fast a couple of days...great!isnt it? "
DONT LISTEN TO THESE WORDS OF YOUR SUBCONSCIOUSNESS,A BALNCE-THIS IS A WAY OUT!

AND A PRAYER AND TRUST, FAITH THAT U CAN!

WISH U LUCK!