On Nov. 27 2007 I lost, Gloria, friend/cousin(by marriage) of mine. Although I recently married into her family, I've known her since 1995 when she was 8 years old. then became best friend with 1 of her cousins 3 years later not knowing they were family. With all this in mind.. I'm not sure how to feel about loosing her.. It hurts like crazy and I find myself getting really angry and lashing out at my best friend & husband (her blood cousins). One particular family member questions if my feelings are real but I don't believe she realizes or knows how long I've known Gloria. Those things make me even more angry. I'm not sure what is right or wrong to feel and do with all this going on. Gloria died in a car crash very violently which doesn't make it any easier. That day several of us cousins drove past the seen not thinking it was fatal some not even realizing it was gloria. I keep replaying things in my head like that is gonna change the outcome of all this but it doesn't. I stopped going to church all together not that I've lost faith but it's just hard.. Is all this normal and how long will it last. The 1 thing that is great is that we still have her son to love and hold but looking into his eyes is like looking into hers. I sometimes wonder if i'm just imagining these feelings and thought or I've just lost my mind.....
I think that you're feelings are normal. I am sorry to hear about the resent loss of Gloria. This must be very hard for you. Have you seeked councelling? Everybody greives in different ways. I am so very sorry for your loss
Hey no problem! The way that I see it is that its having a great affect on your life and that you deserve to be happy. So, you need to do whatever it takes to be happy, and I have always found that talking and getting opinions from an outside source has always helped me. Sometimes when something so sudden happens we don't think clear and need someone to sort everything out. People go to councelling for all different reasons. I would have to say a sudden death of someone close would be a good idea.
Gloria would want to see you happy. You know this now its time to find resources to be happy. Death is not only an end, but its a new beginning for you. Hold her close charish the memories. One thing that I learned about when people close to me pass away I chose the thing that I loved MOST about that person and I pass it on to others so a part of them can live on.