Good Morning Carrie,
And Carrie, I mean every word I said.

You have shared a most important "lesson" to everyone, whether a spiney or not.
There is not a human on planet Earth who has not "kicked" their own butt for doing or not doing something that they knew they should have or should not have done whether to themselves or to another person. Not one!!
But after that "kick" we go on. We hopefully have learned a very valuable lesson and then cross over the bridge and take a new path. You have done that Carrie. But you have done MUCH more. You have shared your story with everyone who reads it. I know you will make others "wake up" and cross a bridge and take a new path.
Keep on sharing and giving advice. DON'T YOU EVER STOP!!!!!
I wish you the VERY best. You have a most wonderful "sister" named Linndie. Now celebrate together your new self.
Will you ever "cross over the line" again. Most likely. But each time you will better understand where that "line" is.
Carrie, be PROUD of yourself, not down on yourself.
I am so very happy that you now have much less pain, and I hope it will continue that way. You will still have one of those "bad weather" days now and then as I sure do. Yesterday morning I could barely walk when I got out of bed, but after some stretches and just moving around I felt better. Then I went outside and enjoyed the sunshine and getting my hands dirty working in our gardens.
WONDERFUL that you will be trying to cut back on your medication. But there again, go very slow. No "cold turkey".
Have a MOST WONDERFUL Day Carrie!!!
RichT