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I can not take my mother anymore. I'm sick of her b*tching at me over every little thing, of constantly putting down how I'm raising Jay, of not giving a sh*t about anyone but herself. I'm fed up with her acting like I sit on my ass all day because the house doesn't get spotlessly cleaned every day. She always seems to "forget" that I have a kid to take care of and I'M IN SCHOOL. Jayden is up most of the night, either she has a tummyache, she's colicy, or she's just.. up. Alert. Not fussing, just awake. And I can't sleep unless she is... so we sleep during the day. Between feeding and bathing and changing Jay, my school work, and the chores that are at the top of MY list of priorities (keeping mine and Jayden's room clean, washing her dirty washcloths, washing her clothes) I'm lucky if my mom's chores, like scrubbing the kitchen and picking up the downstairs, get done. And I'm sick of getting treated like a lazy slave all the time.

On top of that, I'm just emotional all the damn time. I cry over everything, and now it's even worse because when I think about Erica the tears start falling again. Just typing up that sentence started me sobbing. And my mom doesn't give a flying f*ck. When she asked why I was crying this morning, I told her a friend I'd known since I was 8 died, her response was "Oh... *pause* Don't forget to do the dishes today."

What the hell.

But my problem is... should I move out? If I move in with Jacob, I'm going to lose my job. And it's a GREAT job. I make $13 an hour, plus commissions for any appliances I sell. Jacob lives two hours away, and I can't drive (no license). He lives in a tiny town, pretty much all it has going for it job wise (that I could get) would be Pizza Hut. Jacob already drives to another city an hour away from his house to work, and I couldn't get a job there. Plus my work has a child care center, so Jayden would be close by me all the time. I've even talked to my boss about switching from meal preparation to working in the child care, so I'd be taking care of Jayden and getting paid for it

So... I don't know.

Moving out would set us back quiet a bit financially, we'd have to rely on our parents a LOT more than we do now. But on the other hand, I honestly feel like I'm going crazy here. I don't think that the constant yelling's having an effect on Jay, she's a happy little baby... so maybe it's best for her if I stay here.