I have suffered from depression for a very long time. Currently, I take Lexipro daily and that seems to help. By help I mean that I'm happy, my self esteem level is high, I believe in myself and generally active. However, I get these "bad" days where I feel sad for no good reason; I put myself done and wish other people did the same. On these days, I'm very volatile, it doesn't take very much for someone to set me off and add more fuel to the fire. If you were to ask me if I'm going to like myself tomorrow or not I honestly don't know. I go to bed every night hoping that the tomorrow will be better than today.
Does anyone else have this experience? Is there something that I can do, without the help of others, to fight this and have everyday be a "good" day?
If you were on just an antidepressant and were bipolar, chances would be good that it would send you into a constant mania. My opinion, and I'm in no way a professional, is that it's your depression. You may want to make an appointment with your doctor or therapist to talk it over.
Who knows... I may be wrong, but I've been living with bpd since the age of 13. (A very long time ago.) Just keep us posted on what the doc says. We are here to support each other.