Hi everyone...

For those of u that dont know but ithink most do.. Ive had trouble with an eating disorder for about 2 years...Well ive been 'recovering' for almost 5 1/2 months sense I found out I was preg...Ive been doin really good (i was anorexic and bulimic, swang between the two).. Anyhow.. I hadnt purged in a long time.. Im talkin like 3 months almost.. (ive only done it 5 times sense I found out I was preg.. And if u know anything about an e/d then u would know, thats very good for me) anyhow.. Today I ate nachos at work.. Got a huge thing of em. .And the girls 2 seats down were like joking around but they did mean I was eatin alot and they were like 'haha are we eating for 6???".. They dont know much about my past and about my trouble with food.. Anyhow, that was after I ate .They made me feel horrible. .Their all on their diets ya know (but their not thin) so I went in the bathroom..And yea, I did it today. . I didnt even throw up half of it tho, like 1/3 of it, not very much.. Then I stopped and im like "what the hell are you doing!!!! ".. .I felt terrible after.. And I still do....... . . Please dont yell at me about it, I know its bad.. I know its wrong.. I love this baby so much and the last thing I will do is hurt him, I wont continue this, it just gets so hard sometimes...I had to vent..Thanks for listening.