I just wanted to apologive for not being around much.
Things have been extremely hard for me lately.
I don't really want to talk about it.
& Contrary to popular belief, I am not
drinking too much or turning to substance abuse.
I'm so extremely depressed.
I don't want to eat, I don't want to get up
in the morning, yet I don't want to sleep.
I can't concentrate on anything at all.
I don't want to do anything at all.
I've been holding it together for Gabe,
because I love him so much more than anything.
But even staying strong for him is so hard, now.
I just keep thinking about how I don't want to live, anymore.
My anxiety is through the roof.
I literally have bitten a hole in my lip.
& Keep biting & biting at it.
I'm in a constant state of paranoia.
It's just gotten really out of hand.
But, I'm getting help.
I've been putting off doing this for years.
But I've made an appointment.
Hopefully soon I can feel & act like myself again.
Something I haven't been able to do since
I was probably... about 13.
I just wanted to say I love you guys.
Thanks for always being here for me.
I'm so glad you're getting help. You've been through a lot, and there's only so much a person can handle on their own. Gabe is lucky to have such a strong mother, but he needs a mother who's OKAY, not one who's falling apart trying to be a rock for him. It's such a great thing that you're turning to professionals.
It was really hard for me to type this & hit submit.
I have a real problem with admitting that I truly need help.
But I'm going to get it, finally.
I've been pretending to be okay.
But I'm not.
Kristina, I love you so much. You're one of my BEST friends and I think you're the most amazing, strong, caring person/mother in the world. No matter what you do, I'm here for you! I'm glad you're getting help, itll make you feel like a better mommy & you need to feel like the great person that you are.
Aww im so sorry your going through this, ive been there done that, i was miserable for a long time, and it wasnt until i got help for my eating disorder that i got help for my depresion as well. and it all really helps, talking and medication if you need it. SOo glad u were able to ype this out and hit submit! We are al here for you, u can always pm me or message me on myspace if u ever need to talk, ive sorta been ther done that and i prob wouldnt be here today if it werent for my kids. You just gota stay strong for gabe nd get he help you need and deserve :hugs::
I'm so sorry you going through this. My prayers are with you. I'm glad you are seeking help. I hope you find the right person to help you. You deserve to be happy, and I honestly believe you will be soon. Until then, we will all help you through this.
hey krissy! seriously youre amazeing dont ever forget that ok
youve got talent
you have a wonderful son
i know its hard to actually take the step to get help. but after you start to feel better you will be glad you did. listen to your doctor and try to get as much support as you can from family and friends. we sure do all support you 100% whatever may happen. even though you dont want to do things sometimes you have to. because its the right thing to do
im proud of you
and you know im here ANYTIME
Thank you guys so much, seriously.
All your words have made me feel a lot better.
& Sandy, all I can do for now is do it for Gabe..
Because I really don't feel like I'm worth anything.
That's one reason I've gotta get help.
It'll be disasterous if I continue like this.
I feel like I deserve any horrible thing to happen to me.
Krissy i hope you can get the help you need to be as happy as you deserve! i dont doubt youve been having a hard time cuz from just the small stuff youve told us theres enough to break a person. bug hugs to you sweetie!