hi. i'm new here. i've been dealing with mental illness since childhood. diagnoses from ADD and thinking disorder to psychosis, schizoaffective, borderline, and bipolar disorder. i think finally my doctors have settled on bipolar 1. i've been a roller coaster lately. up and down. i think about cutting sometimes, but am fine the next day. glad i made it. tonight i can't sleep. i walked outside to feed my cat and heard total silence (it was after midnight)... total silence except the helicopters. am i paranoid? i didn't think so. i heard them everywhere, but mostly to the south and east. i heard maybe eight or more in just a few minutes. i wondered if something was going on somewhere. maybe they were the media. maybe they were military. what are they doing up there after midnight? i felt they were close to the house. what is going on? i saw nothing, though. no lights. i heard a plane, too, in the distance, but saw nothing but stars. what's funny is i'll probably be fine tomorrow and just discount it to exhaustion. i've been told to never say i'm crazy. that's okay. my doctor did it for me one time.