I thought i was but i'm not. I've just gone backwards and now when i've come on here to get all my feelings out and try to get some advice Mika's just woken up and is screaming at me. I'm a terrble mother, i don't want my baby. Every night she screams for two hours until i finally give in and let her come into bed with me, meaning that i don't get a good sleep and am exhausted for all the next day and then because she won't go to sleep in time she wakes up later so then doesn't get her three solid meals a day and isn't in a routine like i've been trying.
Everyday i have to put up with my dad asking me when i'm moving out, how long is it going to be until i move out, can i get Mika to be quiet while he's trying to watch tv, why have i left her in the lounge while i go into the kitchen etc etc. He couldn't make it move obvious that he doesn't want me here if he tried.
I miss Dom so much. I hate not living together, it's tearing us apart, our relationship is in ruins right now.
We were promised somewhere to live and were told we would have somewhere before Christmas without a doubt, we're still at our parent's. Dom's mum's moving hundreads of miles away in a few months and if we don't have somewhre of our own he's going too. And he won't have a job after friday because it was temporary.
I really don't know what to do, i try to be positive and upload photo's etc and all those other things but deep down all i want to do is cry, i just don't know what to do anymore.