I left Kory weeks ago. I couldn't do it. I told him the god-honest truth. I always have been, am, & always will be in Love with Chris. I can't run from it forever, & it's time to grow up. I really wronged Chris this time, & I don't expect for him to ever take me back, but I have
got to try. I've been working very dilligently on redeeming myself & regaining his trust. It's going well so far, as far as I can tell. But I'm not expecting miracles. I messed up big time. I know he wants me back more than anything.. But it's just a matter of him letting himself.. We'll see.
But I'm bettering myself.
Getting a place for just me & Gabe.
Getting a 2nd job, for sure.
& I'm finally going to get some help.
I have such bad problems.
Especially with my anxiety.
I've got to get myself under control.