Bulimic and want to get better Posted: 12-31-07 03:44am
Hello..
I'm new at posting personal things online
so.. it might be a bit strange sounding
sometimes when you're reading my post..
I'm a 17 year old girl.
i have been bulimic for around.. 2 years?
and going onto 3 very soon
umm..
at first i lost a huge amount of weight, i
thought it was wonderful being bulimic but
then would gain it back sometimes and
would have to use green tea to take it off
fast.
i moved and everything has changed.. i
gained more weight because i was depressed
and went through so much stress from the
move from home..
im planning to change... i know when i
throw up its horrible
but its so disgusting because.. i dont
even care about it anymore i find.. that
its become a part of my daily routine?
tom. is new years and im suspose to visit
my friends.. and ive gained probably 15
pounds - 25 in one week from christmas and
being depressed
i dont know how im going to move back on
my own
and i feel horrible about myself..
i have tried stopping so many times.. but
i dont want to tell my mom or see a
doctor? they will make me stop forever and
eventually i will gain even more weight
even though i ate healthy for one whole
week without purging.. and then gave up
and ate the largest amount of food ive
ever consumed and never did purge it..?
because sometimes i dont even bother but
other times i HAVE to.... probably because
theres some type of event coming up that i
have to look my best for... or im sick of
feeling like a whale..
i just eat huge amounts of food and if one
little thing goes wrong i say screw the
shower and go to bed waking up 6-10 times
at night of heartburn and an acidy feeling
in my throat or wanting to throw up
because i see my stomach looks like a
pregnant womans..
i dont know what to do.. i dont want to
talk to anybody
i just want to be thin and happy with my
life
ive failed my entire grade 11 basically
this semester
because i didnt care.. i was too busy
eating and throwing it up and finding
plans to move back
just it was a big mistake to ever become
bulimic and i dont know how to get my life
back on track.. i want to be home and with
my caring friends.. and have good grades..
be alone.. and at the same time feel good
about my image?
thanks to whoever had the time and
patience to read my very long and somewhat
confusing post...
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young Girl
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Posted: 12-31-07 03:51am
you gained 25 pounds in a week?
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bubblez
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Nov 2007 Posts: 7
Posted: 01-04-08 20:29pm
Dude, I was bulimic and anorexic for two
years. I have a pretty good idea of what
you're going through.
Listen to me, because I didn't do this.
Wasn't able to.
Tell your mom and get help. They will help
you and you will be happier.
If you eat small proportions, you will
lose weight.
Question though...
You said you lost a huge amount of weight,
how long did it take you to lose it?
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gingerelizabeth
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Joined: 03 Jan 2008 Posts: 79
Posted: 01-11-08 11:31am
hey!
the best thing you can do is get help, and
realize food IS NOT a comfort.
find some sort of hobby that gets your
mind off binging and purging. you wont
lose and gain weight so fast and you will
be far healthier.
stay strong!
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innerloss
New User, Becoming EHEALTHy
Joined: 21 Jan 2008 Posts: 1
Wanting Recovery Posted: 01-21-08 01:07am
I have been struggling with bulimia for a
while now, and I can really relate to
everything that you have said. One thing I
have realized over the few years is that I
have to let go of the weight thing. It is
difficult.
Also you really do need some proffessional
help. Someone who has cancer would not try
and treat it on their own, so why just
because this is a mental illness would you
try and do it on your own?
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Fairy Godmother
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Here to help if I can.......... Posted: 01-22-08 12:26pm
You are bulimic because this is the only
thing you feel you have CONTROL
over......your weight. Inside you are
feeling very insecure about yourself. The
weight issue is a CONRTOL ISSUE. When you
feel the only thing left you can control
is your weight, this overtakes you. You
need to tell your Mother and you need to
see a physican. This making yourself YAK,
I can not tell you the damage you are
causing to your esophogus and your
stomach. By blowing chunks, the acid is
eating away at your stomach lining. I
haven't gotten to the part about eating
the enamel off your teeth. Your dentist
will be able to tell, and if I were you.
I'd want to be the one to tell my Mother
instead of her finding out second
hand....kinda embarrassing. Theres a
little flap, ( not sure what its called
medically) that keeps the food waste from
coming back into your mouth, this flap can
actually flip and you could literally
choke to death on your own
vomit.............Sweet Girl, I've been
there and done that. I have a 24 year old
daughter and I never wanted her to have to
go through this. You can control your
weight this yo yo dieting /gaining and
puking to loose is a no win situation.
THere are healthy eating plans out there
for you. Please take control back of your
life, instead of allowing yourself such
pain..........always here to help if I
can!
