These kind of situation is very hard for others to help you with. My cousin has depression, she even hurts herself by cutting, and now she is developing an eating disorder. I know what you mean when u think of senarios of the worst possible cases. I think that too, but you think cuz you deeply care about this person and you just dont want them doing anything to jepordize it. My girlfriend comes from a totally different background where she thinks about group sex and there were times where she even asked me how i would feel if she saw her ex boyfriend. So like sometimes when im taking a shower the thoughts of her giving another guy blowjob and cheating on me would just make me think of what i would do. Honestly that part everyone in a relationship thinks about it, but it prolly doesnt happen. But relationship is all about the trust. You know i was also once in ur situation, i felt depressed and everything. Waking up and feel like everyday is gonna be a bad day. The way i fixed my problem was i started to think postive. I woke up and told myself that today is going to be a good day. It was hard because ur basically changing urself into someone totally new. It takes time but in the end its worth it. I have a loveing girlfriend, im doing pretty well in college. As with the boyfriend thing nothing to worry about it. Let it just flow.

hello
i am suffering from PPD and underlying depression right now. i do not want to be on meds or antidepresants for it (im just not a medicine person lol)
however i DO have some suggestions that may be of great help that my dr told me to try instead of going the route of antidepressants

1. cut ALL caffiene out fo your dietand replace it with water
2. start eating fresh healthy foods,nothing fried or with a huge amount of fat.
3. exersize really helps
talking is the best tool and the best medicine
it will help you so much
you know what else
music and writting too are great stress relievers and help to vent

good luck!

thanks for the advice. im not very good on keeping a diet but im gonna try. i was looking into amoryn do you think it can help a bit.