Joey is cheating on me. I know he is Im not dumb. He says she is just a friend but bull bologna! Theres this girl that Joey as been friends with for a few years. Well this summer he told me she use to have a thing for him and wanted to be with him but he said no. When he told me this it didnt bother me because they havent talked for over a year. Well about a month ago she calls him up and asks for his bosses number so she can see if she can get a job out there. Joey gave her the freaking number and said " They wont hire her. They only hire men because of the heavy machinery" Well she got hired. He tells me he had to train her and she rode in his drill withhim all night long. I asked him what they talked about and he said only about work. Okay thats fine I guess. Then I started thinking she drives a mustang, its low, that car would get beat all to peices out there. So I asked Joey if she drives her car out there. "Ummmmm no i i i i i i go pick her up" I asked 'just when tha "f" was you going to tell me this" He told me he wasnt going to. OK that blew some steam. That day we got into a HUGE arguement. He didnt come home til hours on top of hours later. I texted and asked him where was he. He didnt text back. When he got home he told me him and that b*t*h went to a truck stop to eat. So I put ALL this crap together. She got hired. Hes been leaving for work early. Coming home 2-3hours after he gets off. She calls him like 5 times a day. This is depressing me!! Do I deserve this stuff NO I DONT!

Last night Amelia banged on the wall and a picture came crashing down on her head. I felt horrible and cried about it. This afternoon I asked Joey if he would ride to walmart with me to get some diaper wipes. He said ok. I go get ready and come back out and hes still sitting wathing tv and says hes not going and that he will stay here and watch Amelia. I told him no because he always either falls asleep or goes to a diferent room and she gets hurt. So he decides to throw what happend last night up in my face. Lastnight was a freak accident. Him not watching amelia isnt!

Hes gross! He hocks luggies while he is taking a shower. I have to clean that caca up befre I get in. Im tired of him trashing my truck and me having to clean up his stupid caca. Im tired of everything about him. Istarted back drinking again and smoking more cigs just because of him. I ben trying to get out and have more fun. I met this guy but I couldnt handle him either. He was already talking about moving in with each other and having his baby. So HELL NO to him too. All I want is to be myself and have fun again without all the drama. I can go have fun and be a mom too. Thanks to Aaron and Michelle that has made me realize that!! I have a feeling he is going to get on here and read this so if he does this little messege is for him "Screw off! SMILE!! " Okay now I got to go peepee