im so sorry for takeing up space ranting
but i need to REALLY BADLY
im BEYOND mad
the stupid stary dog that we are keeping here because she had puppies at our house just took a HORRIBLE poop on my EFFING PILLOW
i walked in my room and the smell was HORRIBLE
so i looked everywhere and couldnt find any poop so then yeah there it is on my damn bed
so then i start to take the sheets off and stuff and she also PEED on it everywhere
so now i have no where to sleep im too tired to shampoo the bed off. so i sprayed lysol and got all the crap and stuff out
threw the pillow and pillowcases away
tonight im going to sleep in the spare room. and im MAD ABOUT IT
how did the dog get upstairs?!!!! someone left the damn gate open.
so guess what happens next?! i dont even know
its a downward spiral into depression. im sad im mad im upset. i just want to fight with somebody. not physically fight. but just an argument. i dont know why.
i am so exausted i could throw up. but whenever i lay down i feel like im going to cry
so im here
awake asking for help
or someone to talk to
because i need it
i didnt want to be on meds or drugs for depression. i dont even wanna bring it up to my dr but i have to. i have to because kristen needs a mom that can function like a nornal person and not cry and get sad all the time.
my neck hurts and i think im getting a tension headache
either that or a migrane