Ok this might be long. Ill try my best to sum it up though. I love eric with all my heart and vice versa for him. Anyway, this is the thing. I think I am retarted sometimes for the caca I put up with. He doesnt disrespect me by cursing, or hitting. He is the biggest sweetheart alive and he shows me more love than I could ask for. I have one problem. He doesnt work! We live at his moms house who is an alcoholic and does not work. His brother is 19 and got in trouble at school and is graduating this year. He cant attend for the rest of the year. He gets to do his work at home and hand it in on tuesdays. His mom does all his work! Can u believe that? She was in the kitchen from like noon til 9 pm doing "his" school work while he played on the computer and smokes weed. Thats all he does. I feel like I am surrounded by morons. My life wasnt like this be4 I got with eric. I take care of our bills, buy him his ciggs ect ect. What is wrong with me? I never see myself leaving him. And I know he truly loves me but why would he allow me to be so unhappy. I am under so much stress its unreal. I made an appt to see a therapist next week cuz im on the verge of flipping out and that aint my style. Our child is due in august and we have nothing to give him. I hate the way my life is right now. I really do. Like I look at eric sitting at the computer drinking a beer. And I wanna smack the caca out of him. But lol I love him so much hes like so soft hearted that I cant be mean to him because he is never mean to me. Im soooo health forum y and complain all day and if I told him to jump hed prolly say how high lmao seriously but he wont work! He says he knows or he dont wanna talk about it or he will work soon. I dont know anymore. Everyday this house gets to me its like cursed. His ma walks around drunk all day flippin out over every lil thing. His bro is emotionally messed up . K im blabing. Sorrry girls. Oh and when I tell him to come see the therapist with me he says no but 2night he says he will try it once. ~ erica. Pleaze help lol im desperate