Okay, well, very small things can tip me over the edge and overwhelm me and just make me want to cry. I never do, because I know I'd feel stupid or I'm in public and that would make me feel even more stupid, for crying in public.
Lately, I've been socially distant towards everyone and avoiding social situations a lot. I don't enjoy hanging out with my friends any more either, I'm much more happier by myself at home, kickin' it all alone, but when I'm in public I hate being alone, does that make sense? Lately I began to hate checking my MySpace or email, etc. because I hate replying to people, so to avoid the obligation, I haven't been on my accounts in months.
Truthfully, I don't really feel depressed or sad most of the time, I usually just absorb those feelings and ignore them and then think happy thoughts to lighten my mood or play with my dog. But whenever I'm sad, I feel pathetic. But when I'm drunk, all I do is I cry a lot, and talk about how i hate myself and my life and how I don't deserve my life style. Even just a little bit of alcohol in my system just makes me cry uncontrollably. Is that just drunk talk? A lot of the time, I feel like a hypochondriac, so I'm very uncertain.