hey, i am 18 and have been self-injuring since i was 13. basically, it's just getting worse and worse and i am bipolar i have anxiety, which worry me when combined with the cutting. i don't want to do something one day that i can't undo.

i've been avoiding treatment (more like dodging) since ninth grade, when my gc was told about my SI by a friend and the school/my parents tried to get me a counselor. i went for awhile, then talked my way out. same thing happened junior year, except instead of talking my way out, i got myself diagnosed with ADHD (easy to manage and not socially-taboo). now, (college) i tried to really start dealing with things, but am on my own because i chose an out of state school and everything fell apart. Trying to fix things messed up my school work, and I ended up failing all 4 classes. Also started doing some drugs (pot, chronic, e) and uh, i'm kind of addicted to adderall to boot.


Gist of it all - does anyone know any inpatient treatment centers for self-injury/bipolar disorder/addiction (the adderall)? i've been looking, but can't really find anything and i think a residential treatment center is the only chance i've got.


i want to be a writer and succeed in college and live to be an old, cooky woman and just be okay with who i am and trust in life. you can PM me or reply here or w/e, but any help would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks! and happy holidays!