hey, i am 18 and have been self-injuring since i was 13. basically, it's just getting worse and worse and i am bipolar + i have anxiety, which worry me when combined with the cutting. i don't want to do something one day that i can't undo.
i've been avoiding treatment (more like dodging) since ninth grade, when my gc was told about my SI by a friend and the school/my parents tried to get me a counselor. i went for awhile, then talked my way out. same thing happened junior year, except instead of talking my way out, i got myself diagnosed with ADHD (easy to manage and not socially-taboo). now, (college) i tried to really start dealing with things, but am on my own because i chose an out of state school and everything fell apart. Trying to fix things messed up my school work, and I ended up failing all 4 classes. Also started doing some drugs (pot, chronic, e) and uh, i'm kind of addicted to adderall to boot.
Gist of it all - does anyone know any inpatient treatment centers for self-injury/bipolar disorder/addiction (the adderall)? i've been looking, but can't really find anything and i think a residential treatment center is the only chance i've got.
i want to be a writer and succeed in college and live to be an old, cooky woman and just be okay with who i am and trust in life. you can PM me or reply here or w/e, but any help would be greatly appreciated.
Hey; I know how you feel. Sure, it's true that being Bi-Polar and having Anxiety is a bad combination along with the cutting, but it's not really the combination, it's what you do with it. Have you tried to stop cutting without any meds/treatment?
The Adderall can do wonders for, well, everything, but, being addicted to it is (normal, but bad none the less) really kind of damaging. I hated the way I felt on adderall, but it may be different with you.
My suggestion, you may not want, but it worked wonders for me. Get some help. Whether it's a drug rehab, or whatever, just get help.
xxRelapse, thank you for responding, and i think that's what i'm going to do - get help that is. i'm just having trouble finding the right type of help. i don't want to go to the wrong type of place or something (that's the kind of thing that i would do lol).
the_girlfriend, i read your responses when you were talking with someone else in the self-injury forum and they were great, so I would definitely appreciate any help you could give me. you're obviously a strong person and your baby is adorable in your avatar : ) whenever you have time you can reply, things must be nuts for you right now.
Thank you for sharing this wonderful information. i tried to really start dealing with things, but am on my own because i chose an out of state school and everything fell apart. Trying to fix things messed up my school work, and I ended up failing all 4 classes. you may not want, but it worked wonders for me. Get some help. Whether it's a drug rehab, or whatever, just get help. Thanks again.