Hi, I'm new to this forum, but I've been reading a lot of posts for the past several months and found so many people to be helpful and supportive. I feel a bit silly posting about this, but at the same time I know it will be very helpful to get any feedback/advice. So I will explain my situation.

I am 21 years old, married and expecting my first child. I'm not one to get depressed very easily, and I dont think I've ever been "really" depressed my entire life, but lately I've been feeling really down regarding my father.

My Dad and I have always had a very close relationship, I've always been "Daddy's little girl". My parents seperated when I was 8 and I was sent to live with my Mom. When I was 13 I decided to move away from the city and to the country (my hometown) to live with my Dad & Grandparents. My father moved away from our home 5 years ago to move to the city to be with his girlfriend, whom he later married. They had a little girl 3 years ago (I love her to death, just so everyone knows Im not harbouring any resentment towards my sister in this situation).

Two and a half years ago my boyfriend (now husband) and I moved to the city as well and bought a house. I had gotten used to not seeing my Dad very often seeing as we were living 2 hours away from each other, so I thought that when I moved to the city (a 10 minute drive apart) that I would get to see him much more often. However, over the course of two and a half years he had only visited me a total of 5-6 times, while I went to see him faithfully at least once a week, to see both him and my sister, as I want to have a good relationship with her.

Then this year I found out I was pregnant. My husband and I decided to purchase a house in our hometown and move back, as in our current financial situation we didn't think we would be able to afford to keep up with the cost of living in the city. Now, I find myself depressed about how things are between my father and I. I thought that he would be one of the most excited people about me having a baby, he was very happy when he found out the news, but I am the one who is always trying to maintain our relationship, which I find somewhat unfair. His wife gets angry with him when he comes out to the country, so he only ever comes out here when he has to do something (ie. talk to the bank, cut wood for the winter, etc) and when he does come out here, he is never allowed to stay long as she is calling him every half hour asking him when he will be back.

Today I felt worse than usual because I found out he was out today at my Grandparents and he never called to let me know he was out, let alone stop by to visit me (my Grandparents house is a 5 minute drive away from mine). I feel selfish for wanting to see him, but at the same time I feel justified in my reason for wanting to see him. I feel as though he won't have the time to have a relationship with his first grandchild, and that hurts me greatly. I have many other wonderful people around me, but I've always counted on my Dad to be there. He's a terrific person and I feel as though my child is getting ripped off and won't have a relationship with him. I know things may change when the baby is actually born and he might try harder to visit and/or call me, but seeing the situation as it is at this point, its hard to picture it being any different. I do get along very well with my step-mom as well, but I feel as though she can be very selfish with my Dad's time quite often, and I can't see him not listening to her now or in the future. The only person I can really talk to about this matter is my Grandmother, but she doesn't like viewing him in that kind of light and pushes my feelings away as just being a weepy, hormonal pregnant woman.

So, thanks to anyone for reading this, I appreciate it a lot. It feels good to vent this out, and I don't feel as sad afterwards.

Thank you all for your time.