I have Meniere's Disease (tinnitus,
vertigo, progressive hearing loss in my
right ear) and it first hit when I was
around 13... my health has been in a bad
state since then, and my social life has
been horrible (read:nonexistent), many
other things have happened too.. and I am
now 19 and very depressed and lonely and
worried.
about 4 years ago I started picking at my
breasts (I used to get teased horribly
because I blossomed earlier than other
kids, and I really hate how large they've
grown and have contemplated breast
reduction, so i guess it seemed "natural"
to aim there..i was not in a good state of
mind) and sort of "creating" acne there,
picking at it frequently.. I then moved to
my arms and the skin on my chest..
whenever things seemed really awful I
would go into this kind of daze and start
picking, and then worry about what damage
I might have caused to the skin, and then
pick again in a vicious cycle.. (stupid, I
know).. I've managed to keep myself from
picking at my breasts for over 2 years
now, but the damage is there. they have
healed over but I have little
pockmark-scars, and I worry about whether
or not i have damaged them really badly.
these days my breasts have begun itching
quite a lot, I am not sure if it's winter
or simply the skin damage or the bra i'm
wearing or what..
I still find myself sometimes picking at
my arms but I'm good at stopping myself
these days.. it's very infrequent now..
but I'm more worried about the damage I
have done. I have so many health problems
and I don't want to have made them worse,
but weirdly enough the picking seemed to
have been a coping mechanism (however
destructive). I've never told *anyone*
about the picking and it sounds really
childish but I am afraid to tell the
doctor about my picking my breasts.. my
family and I have moved recently and it's
not going to be our family doctor, I will
have to tell a doctor at a walk-in clinic
I put this in depression because among
other things I am depressed, but there is
no skin-damage or meniere's or
self-mutilation forum.. I hope someone
sees this
thanks so much
~worriedaboutskin
(sorry this is so long..)
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CarolDiane
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Posted: 12-19-07 15:16pm
You are not alone. I also am a picker.
Have been forever. I have the scares to
prove it. I truly believe this goes right
only with nerves and anxiety. It is a hard
habit to break. I have scares on my arms
and legs from picking and I also have
anxiety. Have you been checked for anxiety
disorder yet? If not, you may just need
something very mild to calm your nerves.
If you are really worried, you can always
go to a GYN and she what they say. No
lumps right?
