I've just joined this community because i really don't know where else to turn. My problem is that I want babies. To an obsessive degree where I can barely think about anything else. If any opportunity for daydreaming appears then chances are I'm thinking of babies.

I suppose I should explain a bit better. I am 21 and currently studying full time. I know that I am not really in a situation to have a baby, but I've been telling myself this for about 7 years now and its wearing thin.
I know I'm young. I know I should finish Uni and get a job and save some money. I know all that. But I don't know if I have the patience.

It was easier to ignore before. Especially as I went through high school without so much as holding a guy's hands (it was an all-girl school). Bit hard to get pregnant when you don't even have any male friends
Anyway, no matter how much I wanted a baby, I am not the sort of person who would just sleep with anyone.

It helped when my baby brother was born when I was 15. I got to play Mum, and give him back when he cried too much. I actually did everything for him whenever Mum needed a break.

But then I moved out and the desire began to grow again. And since I met my boyfriend its been getting worse. That was three years ago.
Now I live with a man who i love very much and the temptation to 'accidentally' fall pregnant is becoming overwhelming.

I know that I can't deliberately get pregnant at the moment. We are not in a financially viable situation and he doesn't want kids (yet). I fully understand how much hard work babies are. I know how much they cost. But my desires grow rather than subside.

I simply don't know what to do. I work as a nanny for a three year old four evenings a week and despite the difficulty and the constant contact with a small child it doesn't seem to help.

Does anyone have any advice? Can I make it go away (just a little bit)?

Thanks