I've become pretty worried recently that I
may be developing Schizophrenia. Based on
the symptoms I've seen listed, much of
what I'm experiencing seems to be
attributed to Schizophrenia. I'm just
looking for some opinions, or perhaps some
advice on the situation.
I'm 18 years old, and for about 5 years or
so I've been dealing with depression,
though I have never been diagnosed with a
specific illness. They have called it
Major depression, and they have called it
Bi-polar, however my symptoms have never
quite matched up with either. There is a
history of mental illness in my family.
That being said, about 2 weeks ago I
smoked a lot of marijuana, and since then
strange things have been happening, and
thinking back more minor things were
happening before I smoked. I had always
become moody after the high of smoking
wore off, but nothing more. I think the
easiest way to do this is to just list off
some of the things I have been
experiencing, which I believe can be
attributed to Schizophrenia.
-Fear of the dark
I haven't been afraid of the dark for as
long as I can remember, yet suddenly I
panic every time I am in the dark alone,
or have my back to a dark room.
-Songs CONSTANTLY playing in my head
I know it's normal to have a song stuck in
your head, but I have had to turn on a
radio a couple of times, just so a song
wouldn't be running through my head. The
songs change, and are sometimes songs I
can't even remember hearing.
-Fear of some unseen beings (Generally
associated with the dark)
I keep feeling as if there are small
child-like beings watching me from dark
rooms. This happens in flashes, as I think
about it right now, it seems silly, but
when the fear sets in it is the most
realistic thing in the world. I have found
myself turning on every light in the house
and locking myself in my computer room to
avoid this.
-Scattered thoughts
My thoughts seem to race around in my head
at certain times, where I'm unable to
focus on any one thing. I have had a
stranger recently comment this, wondering
if I had ADD
-Zoning out
I have often just stopped what I was doing
to stare off into space. This morning I
laid in my bed for about 3 hours just
looking around the room, not really
thinking about anything.
-Faulty memory
I have forgotten conversations, and
questions that have already been answered
to me
-Missing work
I didn't go to work today, and I'm not too
sure why. I just ended up laying in bed,
as noted above.
-Perception changes, inanimate objects
appearing to move
As I was laying in bed this morning I
found myself looking at the corners of the
room, the corners seemed to flip in and
out quite like an optical illusion using a
cubic shape. I have a couple of times
noticed things moving slightly, or
vibrating that shouldn't be.
-Thinking that someone can read my
thoughts
I have thought that a co-worker was
reading my thoughts, and plotting to have
me fired. I attempted a protective
spiritual meditation to defend against
this. I have also thought that the
child-like beings can read my thoughts,
and sense my fear of them.
-Thinking that co-workers are talking
behind my back, actually leading to a
brief confrontation where such was
denied.
-Paranoia/doubts in my long-term
girlfriend.
-Mood swings
I have always had constant ups and downs,
but it seems to have gone to another
level. I become aggrivated, or sad, or
happy more rapidly than ever, and with
less cause.
There are quite a few more minor points
that I could make, but I think that that
is enough to work with. I myself have come
to the conclusion that I am developing
schizophrenia, or something like it, and
plan on seeing my psychiatrist soon. I
would however like to hear other peoples'
opinons and advice as well. I will also
make a quit note that I was at one point
prescribed the anti-psychotic Zyprexa, as
a "mood-stabilizer". I am wondering if
maybe the doctor who prescribed me that
had an early hunch based on my mood
pattern?
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jgrib
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Joined: 20 Oct 2007 Posts: 2
Posted: 12-15-07 15:42pm
sounds like pyschosis
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volumeone
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Joined: 14 Dec 2007 Posts: 2
Posted: 12-16-07 02:53am
But does this sound like psychosis brought
on by Schizophrenia?
I just want to point out that I recognize
that this is happening, as it seems to
happen in phases. I will go through much
of the day normally, but I will zone out,
or my brain and thoughts will get foggy,
or race. Within those minutes/hours is
when all of the above symptoms happen. Is
this what happens in schizophrenic
delusions? It seems by much of what I read
that a schizophrenic experiences these
delusions constantly, whereas I have been
going in and out of it.
While christmas shopping today I became
very uncomfortable by the large amount of
people around me, my thoughts got racy and
I couldn't concentrate on, or carry a
conversation. I ended up turning on my mp3
player and ignoring my company, as the
christmas music playing in stores was
irritating me very much. It seems that
things that are petty, and regularly don't
affect me have been aggrivating me, or
bringing my mood way down...
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Georgia59
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Posted: 12-17-07 12:03pm
It is possible to have psychotic episodes
with affective disorders (like
depression). It is also possible, at your
age, that you are starting to show signs
of schizophrenia. You really need to go to
a doctor and get an accurate diagnosis.
It might help you to keep a journal or jot
down how you are feeling and the symptoms
you are experiencing for a while, so when
you go to a doctor you can just give
her/him the whole list.
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woops
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Joined: 31 Jul 2007 Posts: 222
Posted: 12-23-07 18:27pm
I'm not sure.
Are you sure that you're just not a
genius?
Perhaps you should paint and play certain
types of music?
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Philo
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Posted: 12-23-07 18:35pm
I'm sure faulty memory is not a sign of
genius.
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irChris777
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Joined: 21 Dec 2007 Posts: 23
Posted: 12-23-07 20:03pm
thinking people are reading your thoughts
was a major one i used to have and i've
heard has been described as a "classical
delusion of schizo." thinking that people
are talking about you when theyre not is a
big one too. i still use a night light
when i go to sleep. only jesus can rescue
you from fear though not a shrink. they
dont know what is really wrong with you at
all thats why theyre changing around their
"diagnoses" and even the names of the
things that they "diagnose" you with are
constantly changing. ask them if its a
brain disease. then say ok you say it is
then why do mri's reveal that schizo's
brains are the same. then theyll say well
the dopamine is imbalanced. then tell them
if you thought everyone wanted to cuto off
your arms and legs and rape you for 5
million years your brain chemicals would
be off too. HE who dwells in the shelter
of the Most High will rest under the
shadow of the Almighty.
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coonfuusedkidd
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Joined: 28 Dec 2007 Posts: 21
Posted: 01-02-08 23:04pm
wow i have the exact same symptoms except
twithout the delusions i do sometimes get
the thought that someone might be talking
about me when they laugh but i convince
myself there not. Also my symptoms worsen
at night and i dont lie in bed thinking
about nothing. However i have heard a
voice whispering my name and sometimes
when people are talking in the other room
they sound liek different people such as
another one of my friends but there are
people saying the words just it sounds as
if its someone else saying them. I also
hallucinate a little but its just misty
shadows of eyes or skull-life faces from
the corner of my eyes. I also have misty
hallucinations liek these when i close my
eyes. I seem to also get hypnogogonis
hallucinations during night as well. Does
this sound like schizo?
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irChris777
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Joined: 21 Dec 2007 Posts: 23
Posted: 01-05-08 08:10am
volume that happens to me also dumb things
irritate the crap out of me that shouldnt.
i suggest to everyone here to take
primrose oil vitamin c a multi and fish
oil and flax seed oil. I also eat a bnana
or vegetable and have some v8 and fruit
juice everday. I also do pushups and will
start jumping rope 10-15 minutes a day
when school starts this jan (work wears me
out too much). the oils helps women
through pms and helps alot of us get
through when we have flare-ups. your body
needs certain vitamins and minerals
everyday and 3 oils (omega 3,6, and 9) or
something will go wrong. probably if i
would have done these things for myself at
a younger age and removed myself from
abusive situations i would have never
developed symptoms or they would have been
lessened. when i was younger though i
hated myself and loathed food and hated
everything so that would have been
impossible. also smoking and drugs/alcohol
sickness and sleep deprivation can lead
to flareups.
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woops
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Joined: 31 Jul 2007 Posts: 222
Posted: 01-11-08 18:57pm
Okay, doesn't sound anything like what I
have.
These all sound like symptoms of higher
awareness, I mean c'mon, people talk about
eachother behind eachothers backs all of
the time, thats not freaking paranoia at
all, missing work? Not schizophrenia.
I hate to break this to all of you, but
there are either things or people here
that can read your mind, sorry.