So my boyfriend and I haven't done much sexually...but I give him handjobs over his shorts..and he fingers me. But anyway...he says that it makes him happy to know that I am satisfied...and he likes getting me off because he feels accomplished. And I can't say that I feel the same way...Getting him off is just...blah to me...lol...it's just something that happens. Sometimes I feel accomplished...but making him happy doesn't make me happy it's just...blah. (He is the first boyfriend that I have ever had). I don't know why I feel this way, or if there is anyway to fix it. He went away on a long trip, and he hasn't gotten himself off in over a week, and he said he will let me do it this weekend when he comes to visit me...and I'm just like okay...but it almost feels like it's a chore.