i am 32 almost 33. just when i thought i was getting back to that place that happy innocent place.... the bottom always seems to fall out. have i given up on the innocence i left behind? no. i have to believe that i can get back there somehow i can't stand the negativity that pours out of me daily. i try to fight it, i do. i feel so corrupt and gone. i had it all together. and now i don't even recognize myself. ah, to be innocent again. to feel the wind in my face and smile. to drive in my car blaring the music and singing along to my favorite tunes. thinking, believing that i can do anything i want to do in life... all i have to do is go for it. well, i did and i'm losing it all.