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I was diagnosed with schizophrenia yesterday. I almost cried. This explains A LOT, yet under closer inspection it explains nothing. I'm in trouble and I almost can't take this stuff anymore!!! I'd rather take part in an extraordinary delusion then be sucked into ordinary reality where I must face the god awful truth: that I am not normal and have something wrong with me ...? Since when!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

It's not a reality I want to be part of. It must be something else, something curable!

Medication? I've tried Risperdal and it's C-R-A-P. It cuts my awareness level in half, gives me cotton-mouth, water retention, depressed (probably due to the realization of how far down hill I've fallen) ~ (And I thought I was flying higher and higher!), Oh and lastly I like to sleep a lot on these meds, but it's very tiring sleep - for ex. I'll close my eyes at 2am and open them at 10am without feeling like I've slept much.

Tell me it's not true... There's no such thing, there's no such thing I tell ya!