Just Need to Talk to Someone... I Just Need to Vent Alittle Posted: 12-04-07 20:48pm
Okay so I did something reallly stupid and
i know i did an i feel terrible...
So heres the story. A year ago jan.. or
dec. I was dating this guy and we had, had
sex a couple times (always with a condom)
One time when i came over he said to me :
you came over, and your determind to not
have sex huh?" I said ya, I dont want to
have sex. And he persisted on trying to
get me in the mood and tryed to take off
my clothes and stuff, and i said no (said
it a couple times) than i finaly just gave
up and felt terrible, broke up with him
and had avoided him until now, I went
through a really hard time and felt like
it was all my fault. And just blocked it
out. One of my close freidns is now dating
him, she called me up and asked to hang,
so i got excited and went over, i didnt
know he was goin to be there. and when i
got there she just left! Left me alone
with him and i felt so abandoned i couldnt
belave she did it. He tryed kissing me and
i turned away, i explained to him that i
have a bf and nothing was going to happen
between us. he still tryed and i was to
afraid to just leave. and he started
trying to put his hand down my pants and i
stoped him, than he pined my hands to my
side and continued trying.
i was almost in tears and the whole time i
was just wishing i was with Aj. after
trying for a like an hour he finaly geve
up.. for a few.. but he kept trying all
night (i spent the night) but nothing
happend pass him trying. I felt just
terrible and went home after he left.
showered and still didnt feel clean. I
just kept seeing him on top of my kissing
me and stuff it was horrible. that happend
like a week ago, im better now. When i
sign online i sign in invisible so he wont
talk to me, idk what happend but i signed
on visible and he started talking to me
and it was like the room just went black
like no one else was around me and i got
really scared again and i know it sounds
stupid but wanted to run away from my
computer. but i finaly got off. I dont
wanna tell the police or anything up
untill recently i didnt know it was rape
the first time. .. I just need ppl to talk
to. Sorry its so long
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Tylanas
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Posted: 12-04-07 21:06pm
1. Attempted rape is reportable to the
police and you can get a restraining order
against him, especially since this is the
second time he's tried to rape you. I know
you don't want to but you really NEED to.
Why? You need to protect every other girl
who he could potentially rape. You need to
help protect them from this monster and
you can do it
2. You can block people on AIM Just do that, then
he can't message you. Or, get a fresh
start by making a new username and only
giving it to your real friends
I'm sorry such a horrid thing has happened
to you; this boy belongs in jail; THEN
he'll learn all about trying to force
people to have sex! >:^(
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PixieKat
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Joined: 20 Nov 2007 Posts: 201 Location: UT,
Posted: 12-04-07 21:12pm
Lol ya, i just dont feel i should go to
the police... idk if its the same for you
guys... but talking just helps alot... i
was just freaking out for a few when i
wote that.... does it seem strange that im
basicly afraid of my computer.... I just
want to get over everything...
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Tylanas
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Posted: 12-05-07 10:30am
Why do you not feel like you should go to
the police? Do you not think this boy is
dangerous? What if he does this to someone
else?
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PixieKat
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Joined: 20 Nov 2007 Posts: 201 Location: UT,
Posted: 12-05-07 12:59pm
Because, now i realize thats what he does,
the girls that go with him are okay if
he's just a one night stand. When they go
over there, they expect to be pounced on.
I was stupid to think he wanted anything
more than sex from me. I dont even know
why i thought we might have a
relationship. He's just not a one girl
guy. he always has a bunch.
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Tylanas
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Posted: 12-05-07 18:12pm
I just hope there's not another girl like
you someday...
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PixieKat
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Posted: 12-05-07 23:21pm
I hope so too
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mary2006
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Joined: 12 Dec 2007 Posts: 2
Rape Posted: 12-12-07 18:38pm
HEY I KNOW YOU FEEL THAT YOU SOULD NOT GO
BUT IF YOU KEEP LETTING IT HAPPEN IT WILL
KEEP ON UBTIL HE HURTS YOU OR SOMEBODY
ELSE AND WE DO NOT WANT THAT AT ALL.
Just do that, then
he can't message you. Or, get a fresh
start by making a new username and only
giving it to your real friends 