Lost With No One to Talk To..

I now it's hard. A lot of people on this web site are having a hard time. The best thing I can suggest is hang in there and be strong for your Mom. Hopefully something will come your way. In the mean time, stay here, and I am sure somebody better than me will have some better suggestions. These are hard days for a lot of people and some of them are right here to listen, and help you through this.

Please what ever you do, don't give up. Plesse take it from someone who know's. My husband was so depressed and had other issues that he decided that sucide would be the best thing. The thing is ... he has no idea what he did to me, his kids, and grandbaby.I know about feeling like it's not worth it anymore, but I get up every morning cause I have a family to take care of. If you want to talk , I may not have all the answers that you are needing, but I can listen.

i can definitely relate...i'm in school full-time getting post-grad degree, work, pay for my own med insurance. it's a health forum. i usually can't pay all my bills in the same month bc stuff has gotten so expensive. i suffer from depression/anxiety (since about age 14) so i know what it's like to go through major low periods...the only advice i can give is that it does get better-nothing is ever permanent. since your mom's a nurse i'm sure she has access to all kinds of info that would help you--where free counseling clinics are, etc. if you don't want to ask your mom then look it up on the internet or your university probably has free services for students. every city has free clinics and that's 1 way you can continue to get help without incurring cost. also, once you are put on meds, you can contact the drug company and ask them for help. you just fill out paper work telling them about your financial situation and they'll send you free samples, etc. really easy. i'm sorry to hear about your mom's illness...my little sister was diagnosed with cancer exactly 1 yr. ago and i dropped out of school for 2 semesters to be her full-time caregiver... soi know how stressful it can be but, again, things will get better. you're only 19 and i can honestly tell you i remember feeling the exact same way when i was your age (i'm 28 now) and i just know that you can get through this. try to do new stuff like working out, etc... i'm not saying that that will neccessarily help your problems go away (although it won't hurt) but if nothing else it'll make time go by faster and before you know it you'll be in a different phase.

Now you have friends that are just like you here. Just waiting to help. There is some light at the end of this tunnel and you will find it. Everyone's needs are different and you may need counseling or meds or whatever works. Depression is not a death sentance so don't give up on yourself. There is help out there and here waiting for you.
The holidays are always the worst time of year for us. We try so hard to keep the spirit of the holidays. Sometimes it is not that easy. I know for myself, my son and my grandkids keep me going.

Carrie

I almost went crazy ( or so i thougt) with depression. After seeing my husband kill himself in front of me and our daughter, I thought I'd never be same again.We went through our first Thanksgiving without him. That was tough. This Friday will be the first b-day that would of been his and then we have Christmas. Even though these are hard time's right now, there is light at the tunnel. I have two wonderful kids, a daughter- in -law and grandbaby. My life is starting to fall in place and I have a very kind and understanding man in my life that I can talk to. Counciling was good for me. It let me get alot of things out in the open that I thought I was at fault for. We never know what our lives are going to be like and why sometimes we think we have bad luck, but you can take bad situation's and learn from them .

That's really tough.

Is there someone at your college you can talk to? My guess is that there is- a counselor or something, and usually it's free with tuition.

That would help you, you need someone to lift you up right now.

What is your purpose? How would your mom feel if you left her? She needs you. Occupy all of your time working to provide money, studying for school to get your degree, and spending time with your mother. Sometimes life is very difficult, I know how you feel. But don't turn to suicide, or drugs/alcohol, it doesn't solve anything. Stay strong, and remind yourself that you are doing your best. You will get thru this struggle, it will just take take time. Feel free to message me if you need to talk to someone! I am learning how to move past alcoholism and depression (at the age of 23) and get on with my life. I am also a student and money is a constant struggle for me. You are not alone, so keep going, one day at a time.

what you doing being depressed in college. Go to a party and chat it up with tons of people. Get drunk also thatd take the stress of your mind

I'm going to totally disagree with a post on how you need to get "drunk it takes the stress off of your mind', that is the worst thing someone can do when they have depression. when you are depressed on med's, and you mix acholoh with it you can end up having worse problem's in the long run. take it from someone that know's first hand what depression, medication and drinking can do cause I'm a widow now.

SSRI's and alchol is a very bad compination. The way i looked at "getting drunk" was a little vacation from the stress's of everyday realtiy. I'm not saying become an alcholic, but it wont hurt to have a little bit fun. your only human

hey i'm sorry to hear about the rough times you are going through but you need to stay strong for you and your mom. I am 17 and am still struggling with depression. I have had it for 6 years and then my favorite teacher took me for a car drive and told me that me being depressed wasnt going to help me or my family, if it was going to do anything it was going to make our situation worse... i finally came to and realized why should me being depressed hurt other people? it is my thing i am dealing with but i cant bring others into it... the best thing you can do right now is be strong!
if you ever need to talk i am here!