If anyone has some advice, I would relaly like to hear it. I have been dealing with anxiety in a big way for the last 1 1/2 years-ever since the birth of my second child. It seems to get better and then I have these periods (like right now) when I am having panic attacks again. There's no reason for them-they just come on and sometimes they are so awful that i feel like throwing up. They make me feel like I am completely crazy! I was prescribed .5 mg Ativan in the beginning to take when I was having one, and then they became so frequent that I just took it three times per day. I still have some, and I take .5 mg when I feel crazy. I am under a lot of stress right now, and sometimes the wheels in my brain are spinning so fast about what i need to get done, that I feel powerless to take a step toward getting anything done at all.
A little bit about me: I am a definite type A personality and I am certain I have perfectionist issues. Simply knowing this doesn't help to make it go away, though. I understand what my problem is but I just don't know how to fix it. I don't like to take medication unless I have to. I have had issues with depression in the past but never anxiety such as this. I have a counselor whom I could see, but as I am uninsured and short on cash, resources are pretty limited at this time. I take a yoga class twice per week and find this really helpful in centering my mind. I also enjoy running and do so whenever I can, but I work from home and have a small child, so it sometimes becomes difficult to get out there and go for a run-plus its freezing outside! I also wonder if the weather has something to do with this, I hate cloudy days and there have been many as of late.
Any advice, or even your own personal stories would help. I feel so alone in all of this and although my husband and friends are supportive, they don't really understand. Thay always ask "Why do you think this is happening?" Well if I knew the cause, it would probably be a lot easier to come to terms with it. I really am not an unhappy person, I just feel sad some days without knowing why. The depressionis one hthing, but the panic attacks are horrible. It feels like the worst acid trip anyone could ever be on.
Anyway, thanks for listening.