I'm so depressed this afternoon. I'm almost 38 weeks (37 weeks 5 days). I had an appt. this morning and not much has changed since my last appt. at 36 weeks. Doc said I am maybe 1 1/2 cm dilated (from 1 cm at the previous appt.) and my cervix is very soft, which he says is good. He didn't mention effacement this time (last appt. I was 50%). Still, I was hoping for more progress. I'm starting to feel like I'm going to be pregnant forever

The doctor did not give me anything for my anxiety (I've been having off & on anxiety & panic attacks over the past week). He said he tends to prescribe SSRIs for that during pregnancy, but those take 4-6 weeks to kick in, at which point I will have delivered already. I'm supposed to call back if I get more anxiety in the meantime (I'm guessing he might prescribe Xanax or Klonopin for short term use if need be but didn't seem to want to prescribe it today). That doesn't make me happy if I should have another panic attack in the meantime, not that I'm wanting to take medication while pregnant and especially not Xanax, but it would make me feel better to have it on hand if need be.

For some reason, I can't stop crying this afternoon. It didn't help that DH & I were going to go for lunch at a tearoom downtown and we drove all the way there, and then it turned out they were closed today still for Thanksgiving and we had to have McDonalds instead, and now I've got indigestion

I hate when I get in moods like this. It seems to take me forever to get out of them, and I really get upset about every little thing that goes wrong and the fact that I don't have a car to go any place during the day. I wish I could just snap out of it, but it always takes me awhile (several hours usually) to start feeling better and there's not much I can do in the meantime.