Hey Sunshine89.
Sorry to hear about your situation

I'm 19 and I have excessive hair too if that helps at all. I have a moustache, hairy nipples and a line of hair in my tummy. my bikini line is quite hairy and whatever I do to get rid of the hair I get a massive horrible rash. I can't shave my underarms more frequently than every 3 days or I get a rash there too.
I can bleach my moustache, I use 'Boots Expert Hair Lightener', I think it's a few British pounds but it lasts quite a long time, maybe you could try that or something like it?
Being hairy affects my confidence as well, it sucks in summer when it's hot and I can't wear a vest-top two days running, and going swimming / to the beach is really difficult too.
I used to be quite underweight when I was younger and even though I was trying to put on weight people thought I was anorexic, including my mum. also my younger sister has G-cup boobs and I'm A-cup and she used to take the mick a lot. so I know how it hurts more when it's your family. I don't think they realise it hurts though, I don't think they want to deliberatly hurt you, they just want a bit of fun and donât realise the effect itâs having.
People always say that confidence is your most sexy feature, so I guess the aim is to acknowledge your beauty and then be confident and people will notice this more than one or two aspects of your appearance. Iâm sure you are very beautiful, I think every girl has some sort of beauty. Maybe you have nice eyes or a nice smile or nice hair or something. Think about those things
But what saddened me most when I read your story was âIs this some kind of punishment from God?â I really, really strongly believe that it is not. I am a Christian and I believe what the Bible says about punishment, that we all deserve it but because God loves us so much he wanted to spare us from that punishment and so he sent his son Jesus to take our punishment for us so that we can go free. Of course, life still has its ups and downs because we live in a broken society. But however much the world sucks I know I have a father who loves me unconditionally and will always be there for me, and when I die I will be with him in paradise forever .
Hereâs a passage from the Bible (2 Corinthians 5:1-4) that seems relevant. I hope it helps you
âFor instance, we know that when these bodies of ours are taken down like tents and folded away, they will be replaced by resurrection bodies in heavenâGod-made, not handmadeâand we'll never have to relocate our "tents" again. Sometimes we can hardly wait to moveâand so we cry out in frustration. Compared to what's coming, living conditions around here seem like a stopover in an unfurnished shack, and we're tired of it! We've been given a glimpse of the real thing, our true home, our resurrection bodies! The Spirit of God whets our appetite by giving us a taste of what's ahead. He puts a little of heaven in our hearts so that we'll never settle for less.â
Message me back if you wanna talk, Iâll be here
God bless xxx