I want to finally have a life, finally live on my own.

I just did my second of 3 exams in my computer course, and undoubtedly failed it (yet again). Thing is, I'm having more and more trouble concentrating in school and life in general because of my painkillers (morphine-based). They make it so I constantly have to maintain an effort not to drift off into dreamland during class, and I often do anyway.

I HATE being on them at this point, I hate every aspect of the effects, but my condition is only degrading and the pain is a lot to deal with as is. I've asked many doctors about this but they all give the same answer: I have to decide between more pain or more mental foginess. Neither are an option if I want any hope of getting an education.

I've tried working at a few types of light jobs, but making it through a 4 hour day is too much pain to bear, let alone a full 8 hour one.

So at this point, I really don't know what to do with my life. I'm 22 years old and still living in my parents house for frig sake. I want to leave so bad, this is just getting rediculous. But are there any options to be had? Something I haven't considered, maybe outside work or school? It's not like I can live in their basement for the rest of my life, I want to start having a life already! And that's not going to happen till I move out, have at least some money to spend. But as long as I'm on these stupid painkillers, keeping up in school is too difficult. I'm struggling with only 2 courses right now as is.

*sigh* I don't know... any ideas? Life is feeling pretty hopeless right now.