THIS is amazing to know so many others get off this way!!

I remember when I first discovered it when I was 9, I locked myself in my bedroom all day and just went to town on this gigantic teddy bear I had! Now I use pillows ALL the time! I don't think I've ever orgasmed on it, but I get many many intense little moments of pleasure that feel better than anything else in the world!
Like everyone else, I also have troubles feeling pleasure any other way. I've been with my boyfriend for 4 years (I'm 23 now) and I have never felt nearly as good with him. The only pleasure I get out of sex with him is the purposeful movements and the different positions. It's a much different feel good than with my trusty pillow

Said to say, but I have been faking orgasms for our entire relationship. I once admitted to him the way I masturbate, but he seemed stunned and slightly... repulsed?... so I never brought it up again. Sigh, the life of women.