No you are not a bad mum. I suffered with it, but i never told anyone. I wish i did now because it's the worst feeling ever. Try and talk to someone about your feelings

I suffered from it really bad with Layla. I scored top marks on that test you're talking about. I answered almost always to all of them. I was completely disconnected from Layla and didn't want her I kept getting Neil to keep her at his house and I would spend hours in tears. I wanted her adopting

I begged my grandparents up north to take her for a few weeks andafter a week they told me to come and takeher back. I cried my eyes out and they thought it was cause I missed her- it wasn't I just didn't want her back.

When I look back on it now and think how much I love her i realise how ill I was. With Logan everything just fitted into place straightaway and I loved being a mum from day 1.

You should take the tablets IF you think they will make you feel better. I didn;t take the tablets cause I didn't want to just be falsely happy but they do work. I got over it myself by realising that there was no way out of this and I just had to get on with it. After a few months I slowly started to like her, then love her. It was a long process for me but like I said it is an illness.

PM me anytime you need to talk. I will PM you my mobile number too.

Good luck babe. I am here for you and I know what you are going through!

I had it bad, at my worst moment i can rememeber standing over her moses basket with a blanket and wondering if i'd be happier if i did do that, that was the moment when i knew i needed help. It in no way makes you a bad mother, it is an illness which you can't control